today is eerily scary. Kate linder came over to my house and we had a nice talk. I always enjoy her presence here. I get a nice break from work, get a chance to talk with a good friend. Kate has her own sense of humor and loves to get out and meet with people. She is so brave to go out there and be Kate. I, on the other hand, am scared as hell to go out there on my own. I am scared to even go out and get gas by myself. I am scared because people may see that I fo not feel that i belong. My dad does everything around here for both my mom and me. I do not know how much further he can stretch himself. He has a quick learning curve! Sometimjes, I feel as though I have died and gone to heaven already. I guess I feel this way because my life, is flashing before my eyes. And yet, I still live. I hope it is a good thing.
