“Hi ho a merry oh, A single’s life for me!”
This will be my theme song for a year. I am vowing a chastity of relationships. It’s tough. But somebody’s gotta do it. Besides, being in a “ball and chains” for five years can really do some damage to a person’s ….something. I am finding this alone time a learning experience and terribly terribly lonely. But! I am leraning my limits, boundaries, and my untapped talents! I never thought I could survive without people around me 24/7. It seems normal. Amazingly, I am getting used to the fact that normal people have some down time. And for me, it is really scary and awkward. It is time I have longed for throughout my “relationship”, and never allowed myself to enjoy. Now, they are some of the best times! productive and enlightening at best!
Anyway, I set out to write a story about my old life, and I never seem to be able to do so. What normally runs in my mind when I think about that period is the closeness I’d developed between my brothers. I miss it. I missed the part about me that absollutely LOVED was how i cherished each and every relationship and friendship i encountered. I loved to get to know someone over a cup of coffee. dinner and lunch were really good ways to bond with friends. weirdly though, eating with family always seemed like a necessary way of growing in the learning of life. well, i’m going to finish up here. That’s mainly the stuff i miss. the annonymity was wonderful too. maybe did find my hiding place after all. now that i’m out, i feel ‘the world’ again, normal. it was hard to decipher whether it was a craziness, the division between city life and rural life. I longed so much to be back where “everyone knows my name”. It was one of the best places to grow up and be a part of a community. Here, I just feel like another body. I’d love to go somewhere like
